Hi, I’m your Soul Support Sista, and I am a recovering arrogance addict. Yes, I know what you’re thinking: she seems so humble in nature by her post. Tis true but it took some life altering moments to get me there. See, I was not arrogant in the way that most think. I was not the traditional arrogant puffed up by their own self importance or abilities. Well, kind of. See I had this misled notion of boasting in the Lord where I just knew that the Lord would meet my needs (because He’s able to) the way that I wanted Him to each and every time. And haven’t we all been there?
As many of you may know, I lost my mother some time ago (life altering event). Although she had been sick for nearly 20 years, I would often boast (as proof of my faith) that the Lord would heal her and prolong her life simply because I, His child, requested Him to. Then not so suddenly (but suddenly to me) Ma passed away after a two decade fight with Sarcoidosis. I was devastated. It was my first true loss. It was also the realization that it wasn’t me keeping her here. It was God all long, in His might, doing what He promised: to restore health but also to end suffering for His glory. I had not been running a thing, ya’ll. I had simply been side seat driving from the backseat to our God’s ears, the driver, as if He had to listen to any of my directions to get me to my determined destination. WRONG!
Okay, let’s say that overcoming arrogance was really a 12-step program, I suppose I would be at step 5. Hey, it only took me nearly four years to get there. Yet, with any recovery program, it is indeed a life long process. So let’s see here: I have admitted the problem (step 1), came to believe God as a restorer (step 2), turned it over to God (step 3), took inventory of myself (step 4), and now I am admitting to God, myself, and to you all the nature of my wrongs (step 5). Now I could be cynical about these steps but I choose to rather place value on my recovery holding to some sort of principles as such for accountability purposes. No, I am not an alcoholic or substance abuser but arrogance diminishes my chances of self-actualization just the same. Arrogance merely stands in the way of our progress. So “‘let the one who boasts boast about this: that they have the understanding to know me, that I am the LORD, who exercises kindness, justice and righteousness on earth, for in these I delight,’ declares the LORD” (Jeremiah 9:24 NIV).
Understand that the way we know God changes with each experience we encounter. Each experience often leads to more questions than answers like: What do I do when God comes through but not the way that I wanted Him to? Or how does the dilemma change the dynamics of my relationship with God and the process of my Christian journey? That was SO me! The Lord had blessed me so much that when I had to face His plan for my life, I too began to question everything. I was praying, fasting, attending church, and somehow forgot that He was LORD. I couldn’t even see through my false confidence. Arrogance was at work and I was living unaware until met with God’s plan through tragedy. So don’t be a me today. The moment you become aware that you have become more confident in your faith (or own ability to hope) than the ability of the one behind it, fall to your knees in forgiveness and begin the recovery process. Don’t wait till the tragedy occurs; interchange that self-confidence for God-confidence straightaway for God cannot be exalted in your life until the arrogance is humbled.
Bless and be blessed,
– Soul Support Sista’